May 19–Job 12-15
“Though He slay me, I will hope in Him. Nevertheless I will argue my ways before Him. This also will be my salvation, for a godless man may not come before His presence.”–13:15-16
Disagreement is not disloyalty. It took me a long time to learn this truth. For years I wrongly believed that we were not to question those in authority above us. Especially not God.
Job knew better. Sometimes arguing with God isn’t unbelief. Actually the opposite. Saying what you honestly feel isn’t disrespect, rather it is part of a genuine love relationship. Not only allowed, expected!
Moses. Elijah. David. Gideon. Jeremiah. All of them, in slightly different circumstances, expressed disappointment or challenge for the way God was allowing life to go. In every case (as with Job) the answer came from God (in His own time and way) without the slightest hint that He was offended by the frank challenge. Job’s friends were aghast that he would argue with God. See 15:13. Job’s God was pretty ok with it.
As I walk with the Great God, I must allow myself the same margin, require of myself the same honesty. I must accept the privilege of honest conversation. Must grasp that my questions don’t challenge the foundation of genuine belief any more than Job’s words did.
If I am honest (and God knows I should be), there will be times that I am puzzled or disappointed. Times when my heart is filled with a question or complaint. Saying so is not a sin. It is what He expects from me.
“Hiding how you really feel and trying to make everyone happy doesn’t make you nice, it just makes you a liar” (Jenny O’ Connell).
“Most men would rather deny a hard truth than face it” (George R. R. Martin).